The emotional moment after Meghan Markle told Prince Harry she was having suicidal thoughts was captured in a video showing the prince’s visual “despair” while attending a charity event at the Royal Albert Hall.
Back in March 2021, the Duchess of Sussex revealed in an interview with Oprah Winfrey that she had contemplated suicide while serving as a senior member of the royal family.
During the interview, Meghan spoke about the moment she told her husband she was having suicidal thoughts, just hours before a Cirque du Soleil show at London’s Royal Albert Hall in January 2019.
“One of the things that still haunts me is this picture someone sent me of us going to an official event at the Royal Albert Hall,” Winfrey recalls. “A friend said, ‘I know you don’t look at pictures, but oh my gosh, you guys look so amazing’ and sent it to me.”
Meghan went on to say that she “zoomed in and what I saw was really what that moment was like. Because right before we had to leave, I had a conversation with Harry that morning,” noting how she told Harry she “didn’t want to be alive anymore.” Shortly before attending the event.
Two months after the sit-down interview, Prince Harry opened up about the night Meghan told him she considered ending her life, while she was six months pregnant with Archie at the time. Speaking with Oprah Winfrey on his Apple TV+ documentary series, I can’t see itPrince Harry recalled a photo of the couple squeezing each other’s hands as they walked through the historic London building.
“What people probably don’t understand is, earlier that evening, Meghan decided to share with me her suicidal thoughts and the practicalities of how she could end her life,” he said.
He continued, “The most terrifying thing about her was the clarity of her thinking. She wasn’t losing it, she wasn’t crazy, she wasn’t self-medicating – whether it was through pills or through alcohol. She was very sober. She was perfectly sane, but in the stillness of the night these thoughts awoke her.
The thing that kept her from seeing it was how unfair it would be for me after everything that had happened to my mother and now being in the position of losing another woman in my life, with a child inside of her, before admitting he felt “a little ashamed” of the way it had been. He was reacting to it with his wife’s suicidal thoughts.
“Because of the system we were in and the responsibilities and duties we had, we had a quick embrace. Then we had to change and jump into a convoy with a police escort and drive to the Royal Albert Hall for a charity event and then go out to a wall of cameras and pretend as if everything was alright.” Alright,” he explained.
Now, a video taken during the performance at the Royal Albert Hall points “despair” in Prince Harry’s face, and they only know what happened hours earlier.
The video that surfaced shows the Duke and Duchess of Sussex sitting in a box in a performance hall. The two clap, while Megan smiles at the crowd. Meanwhile, Harry’s expression was noticeably sad and straight-faced. He holds Megan’s hand and looks up at the ceiling while sighing.
“The moment a pregnant Meghan tells Harry she no longer wants to be alive,” they wrote in the video. “Harry searches through the air desperately for a way out because he is terrified that history will repeat itself.”
The clip, shared by TikTok user @yeternal5, has more than 1.5 million views since it was posted on November 16. Many people in the comments section criticized Meghan for smiling in the video, but fans were quick to defend her and point out that the Duchess was putting on a brave face.
One user commented: “She’s not smiling, she’s hiding.” “She brings him together and shows them what they want to see. His perfect wife.”
“It’s called putting on a brave face,” another person wrote. “She’s there on duty.”
Another person said, “Of course she’s smiling the way they’re making headlines.” “She didn’t want there to be any thought that something was going on.”
In the latest episode of her podcast, modelsMeghan Markle has revealed that she was “conditioned” not to show emotions in public.
“Even my own version of a crush… I like to cry a lot, but I’m conditioned to have some—a different kind of composure,” she told podcast guest Constance Wu. And now you kind of go, Oh, just relax and let it out. And I see the same thing in my kids that you’re talking about in your kids, and I’m like, ‘Oh my God, I want to do that.'” [release her emotions without fear or shame]. I want to feel so deeply. It’s like an Adele album. Just like a lot of intense feelings.”
If you are struggling with feelings of distress and isolation, or are struggling to cope, Samaritans offers support; You can speak to someone on the phone for free, in confidence, on 116123 (UK & ROI), email [email protected], or visit the Samaritans website to find details of your nearest branch.
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